about faith.. read on

i wonder why people always talk about the "spark"?

na minsan they feel na nagddrift away nlng bigla ung feeling..

not in romantic terms..

i mean..

regarding God, people say na.. "prang hindi ko na sya nafefeel ryt now".. or actually "parang hindi nako high"..

well in my point of view.. being "high" or that feeling is just an earthly thing.. i mean yes.. we do get high when we feel so happy.. lalo na pag tinupad ni God wish natin or He gives us a blessing.. but ano ba tlga ung dapat..

for me, ndi mo dpt ibase un sa feeling eh.. minsan lalo na pag babae ka.. dnadapuan ka tlga ng mood swings.. kaya normal lng ung low feeling na un.. peor dont thnk na "prang wala na sya" porket hndi ka na high.. coz faith is not based on feeling my friend.. faith in God initiates feeling.. but feeling alone does not gurantee that you have faith.. :)

one more thing.. actually, minsan bad dn nmn na over wla ka ng feeling.. just think of it this way.. u do something wrong.. peor ok lng sayo.. kasi "hindi nmn nako nakokonsensya eh.. or ndi nako naguguilty., manhid nako gmwa ng ganyan katarantaduhan"

just think of it as an analaogy.. alalm nyo ba ung sakit na loss of feeling? ung kunwari. u dont feel any pain.. for example. kahit may cut ka sa thigh mo, u wont feel any pain. patay na nerves mo.. actually ganun dn when it comes to faith.. minsan wla na tayo nafefeel.. prang manhid na tau.. pero we dont realize na nakaksama na pla sa atin ung gngwa natn.. the person wd the cut.. he doesnt feel na may sugat pla sya.. constantly nagddrip ung blood.. peor still, hndi nya alam.. andami ng nwalang dugo s knya..

only in the end will he realize na oh no.. im in great trouble already.. kasi he didnt feel any pain at first..wlang warning.. same goes with our Faith.. bka magsisi lng tayo sa huli.. hndi ka man nakokonsesnya sa gngwa mo.. it's a silent killer.. it destroys you before u know it.. and by the end na alam mo na... it's too late..

lonely

ill try to leesen my typo errors..

i feel weird right now. actually kanina. siguro irritable ako. we went kanina sa cervini open house.. free food though but i was not happy. i dont know why but iba lng tlga mood ko non.. i feel lonely depsite having my blockmates with me.. and the fact na im not part of that histo grp, i felt more lonely.. ewan ko. pero even though i have someone around me, bakit ganun, i feel na ang layo ko sa kanila.. it's sad to think na marami ka ngang friends. but if you count your close friends.. sino nga ba? is there any? ang sad.. well minsan i dont know kung kanino ko dapt ishare mga nafefeel ko.. so i end up being in my own sad world.. trying to solve my own problems and make my self happy.. or force myself to believe that I AM HAPPY..

i dont know.. i feel so lonely.. "lonely" is the loneliest word.. and it's the worst feeling ever. hay.. parang i go to school, study, pero parang wala na kong social life.. if i talk to someone, it's either about the org or academics.. nothing new.. and i feel emoitonally detached with the people around me..

i just hope someone can make me smile. look how desperate i am. im stuck in my lonely world.. all my smiles are covering my loneliness.. mere facade.. kasi i cant help it.. if people notice that im sad.. sometimes, i get sadder all the more.. lonely me.. who can i talk to? literally.. i need some psychiatrist.. i need someone to is willing to give some time to talk tot me and not negate me for what im saying.. just listen.. mat pagka baluktot man pagiicp ko.. just listen.. coz im all stuck in my lonely world..

ay ay ay.. my lonely world and me.. ay ay ay

thanks!

• Thanks ja! - clarissa

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• tnx! 2log ka na. nyt ja.-chari
  
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• hehe np ja. bale ung ACMG choir n server ung pupunta tom. i wont be der kasi il be in payats 4 acmg's external ministry. il tel dem nlng not to leave ryt aftr. tnx ja!- reg
  
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• wn eevrythng sims unfair wn ol dt u do is not aprciated, il go w/u wipe ur tears, take u for a walk and tel u.. "e2 lollipop tahan na. di ntn cla bati"-peter
  
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• msya dn ang gang grps dahl sa iyo haha-wilson
  
• true friendship is not measured by the time spent 2gedr or the favors done for each other but by hte com4t u fiund when u realize u have each other. i miss u!-claire
  
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• friendship s d cement dat holds d world 2gedr. ung atin, ndi lng cement, may rugby, mighty bond, elemers glue, paste, gaw2, kanin, kulangot, sipon kya di maccra un!-peter
  
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• thanka ja! cya!-ron
  
• sobrang hindi. mamaya gagawa ng kaunting prob tapos long prob 3 chap 5. stressed ka nanaman eh.-stan
  
• thanks ja. thnak God my rummate is doing well na. pero monday pa sya lalabas. im bak na sa dorm-ron
  
• thanks ja. mjo tpos n akng magstdy tpusin ko ngaun ung costumes haha. pasabi nlng sa boys 2 bring baggy shorts. i mean bagggy tlga di lng mhba., thanks ja!-ron
  
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• anu b yan?1 unahn ba raw nag telenovelas?!-peter
  
• Ganun?! im alwyas praying for u. anyway, bka d mo pa alam, d2 nako sa massachusettes magaaral. cge Godbless! plague. i love u sis!-flofie
  
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• achi ja, gud evening. C nino to. Sori hnd ako mkakaatend ng retreat dhl uuwi nako ng bcolod by oct 15. sowi. –nino
  
• good evening. Just missing you! Hugs and kisses!-flofie
  
• gud am pla. Me rin I have a lots of book and papers to read. Im praying for u always ja! Just pray po and alam ko nmn magaling ka magcram. Hehe wat tym clas mo? Me nxt wed. n u lit clas ko. Dun p kc start regular class d2 sa MIT-flofie
  
• goodnyt. My virus comp ko eh. Puro rsf lng ako eh. Ingat! Thanks os muich! Sleep na! nemasu!-bianca
  
• mis na kita sbra ja! Brg mukahang sibrnag stressful ang wk na ito, dnt wori I knw how it feels-debo
  
• yups, wg masyado ma stress. Nakakacra ng beauty yan hehe ingat ka plagi ah!-debo
  
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• Pwd ako s amtg! I dnt thnk I nid help but I wnt mind getting help.-nolet
  
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• Ok ja. Paannounce nmn ng kidde party on wed. 430-6 at least 7 rep per gang grp. Ames and prizes. Pati nrn ung tambay wk. thanks;-fren
  
• Ok thanks for inviting me ja. Will update u by d nxt wk. tnx! Jess bless!-achi fanny
  
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• D n gus2 ko lang alam kung home na cya. Gudnyt cutie!-ae
  
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• Js wanna let u know na m here in case may prob ka. Wiling to ofr helping hand and a shoulder 2 lean or cry on. Always rembr dn na c Jess plging nanjan at hndi tau pbbyaan.-nino
  
• Yeah tma ka. Ako nga kht im not catholic, I biliv dat he s a very gud role modeldat we shud follow. Esp His life-nino
  
• Ay chrysanthemum magksma na sa tknig ones proper station? Edi meron na pa k nun. tnx ja.naduling ako. Have a gud day! Ingat!-cua
  
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• Hi! Thanks for participating and supporting maca in som wk. hope u were also able to have fun!bawi nlng nxt yr.-lin
  
• Aw. Don’t worry magrereshuffle tayo for next sem. Lungkot dn ako-bianca
  

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teachers

nakakalungkot.. ewan ko ba.. maweird lng.. bkt kaya ganun.. cguro dulot ng stress.. ewan ko pero everyday na pumap[asok ako ng school.. prang wla akong niloolook forward na mangyari.. same dull lifestyle.. actually kanina, ung binubuhat nmn ni martin ung gamit for the accessories sale.. mejo msya ako nun dahl i saw the clouds.. labo ba? oo because i saw the clouds.. nature works wonders kasi.. and ang lakas ng hangin wch made me feel okay..

actually i dont feel na malapit na pla bday.. (parinig ba?) haha joke.hndi nmn.. actually.. hndi ko tlga naicp na malapit na pla un.. kasi dmi gngwa.. habang papaplapit.. ang naiicp ko ay malapit na ang theo report nmn.. sheeshhhhh and i fefel bad. lalo na sa histo.. and demadning kasi eh.. wla tuloy akong sense of accomplishment.. pero buti meron na kaming topic. thanks to marc

well on the lighter side of things.. msyang masya ako dahl sa mga teachers ko. actually.. sometyms.. my teachers make me laugh indirectly.. more than the people around me.. lalo na pag ibarra or lemmuel tym... sheesh.. i get to laugh and feel good in school..

i love ibarra so much.. she makes me happy kahit nagaglit sya sa class namin.. actually she is really funny.. i like how she loves mac so much.. ambait nya.. and sobrang motherly figure haha!! how i wish ganun dn mga lola ko haha.. kalog :) sobrnag kktwa tlga sya.. haha.. cant define how her mannerisms make me laugh during acctng class ALWAYS! it never fails...

isa pa itong c sir lem.. funny guy.. sobra! kahit kacornyhan! mukang cute pag nagpapakacorny heheh :) cute cute teacher.. mukang daddy-o.. :) as in sobra syang funny at feeling ko kasi kya natutuwa kao kasi he also acts in a kiddie way.. kya nakakrelate ako :)

i liek maam coo rin.. i like her enthusiasm when she teaches.. i mena sobrnag laam nya mga nangyayari before.. and to think na we have her as our teacher-beautiful and fashionable-- hehe.. nakakexcite pumasok! weirdo nako cge na.. pero ganda nya haha :) it's fun to think na we have the known teachers na okay tlga..

and speaking of popular good teachers.. another is laugenco.. funny guy.. peor prang funny na may pagkacruel in some sort hehe pero funny parin.. corny jokes pero lagi dn nyako pinaptwa :)

si maam yecla nmn.. ok nmn.. mejo strict teacher but natwa tlga ako sa "paper"point presenatation nya haha.. pero she's not the really funny teacher though pero i learn a lot.. kya ok dn :)

another is jerry.. not really funny thoguh pero he has his sense of humor.. i like him for his enthusiasm is teaching.. dahil sa mga kwento nya. mas gusto ko na tuloy magstay sa course ko. and his daddy figure too.. hehhe! nakaktwa lng.. bait pa.. :)

sir yu nmn.. ok nmn.. though not as funny as the others.. he's a lenient lab teacher.. kya ok na rn. kahit mbaba grades ko s knya..

actually i like all my teachers this sem.. pero the one that tops my list is ysmpre MS. VCI.. u know who she is :) she's the "crush ng bayan" haha thanks to celadon's gratia ;) tma ba? sya nanalo ryt?

well mejo ok nako.. thanks to the memories VCI made.. pag naiicp ko mga sinasabi nya.. nattwa ako s knya.. hahah! i like VCI :)

accessories sale

KAINGIN

presents

another much awaited sale..

calling all femmes who want to add fab on their clothing..

pwd pa ipacustomize ung accessories na gusto nyo!

price varies dpnding on what u pick :)

bsta drop by nlng kayo lalo na sa QQ mac before histo class hehe or aftr histo class!!

see u der!!

fudsale!!

KAINGIN

presents

Dying to satisfy those sweet buds???

Munch on our delicious polvoron for only P3.00 pesosesoses!!!! Think about it.. mas mahal pa yung mga tissue paper sa vendo!! dito may pagkain ka na plus may tipid ka pa!! :)

thre's more.. i know marami sa inyo super looooveee ang cookies or that sort.. so buy buy now! limited offer!! get a taste of our chocolate oatmeal bars for only P10.00!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mas mura pa yan sa mga stalls sa iba hahhaa!! so dali dali.. see u in SEC field!! September 12- 16.. plus get to meet the KAINGIN hotties at gwapas.. :) hehe joke :)

yehy!!

thank God it's finally over.. tapos na histo report namin.. pero more stressful events to follow.. STILL no rest for me..

pero i dont regret anything.. masaya ako dahil sobrnag bonding moment kami dun sa condo ni wabbie!!! up to 430 am hahah!!

gusto ko ityp mga happy moments here pra ndi ko maforget:

• bangag na si clarissa.. anu anu tinatyp sa ocmputer.. fierceful.. typ na "FEARCE" haha.. tas powerful. "POWER FULL" :)
• c mon naggugulat kay april
• may drag racign from above
• nung nanankot sina mac and mon.. asar naiyak ako pero ok nako haha!! :)
• nung naggugulatan dn sa condo ni wabbie.. kasi brownout
• nung nakit ako ung view of ateneo from above
• nung bumili pa kami ni april ng corn bits :)
• nung sabay kami ni april and marc magsimba.. 1st tym ko rn makalakad sa labas nang gabi haha :)
• nung kumain kami sa KFC
• nung nagffloat pa kami ni april sa elevator
• nung nagkwentuhan ng scary stories
• nung pumunta sa ateno nang madalin araw.. at dahan2 pa c mon magdrive wdout hte lyts
• nung natakot pako sa pants na nakahang at napakapit ako kay clarissa.
• nung inaalog ko si clarissa para magcng
• nung pumunta pa kami ng seattles at tumtwa nina marc and april
• nung humingi pako ng tubig dun kay wabbie at ntwa ako sa slogan ng CR nya
• nung ntwa ako sa kwento ni mon na naiyak sya sa childs play :)
• nung naasar pa si marc about sa buhok nyang mahaba
• bsta masaya!!!! hehehhe!! kahit super late tulog.. :)

huweeeeeeee!!!!!