nachos galore

hmm yummy. cant wait for pica pica day. i love nachos so much. the ones with the salsa! :)

nacho king ndi syado gaano masarap though. iw ant the salsa or else! hahaha

did this when i was craving for nacho sometime during summer. nakaklaway ang sarap sa chilanga's! the best kasama pa ung fried beans!

cute dogs. haha wla lng. nakaktwa. smell my breathh.. *ahaaaaaaaaaaaaa...*

specially for you

im really paranoid. and a bit scared.

i was really hearing voices a while ago in my head. i wonder if im just making them up or there really is a voice. sheesshh. and i hear sounds in silence. i cant describe how silence sounds. but it's similar to a horror film.

i hope im not mentally ill. but it wont hurt if i am.

sidenote:
a while ago, i saw this special Chinese guy. He's mentally ill. He's cute and he's retarded. but it's such a pleasure to just experience watching him. He flips his arms round and round and he's lookign everywhere but he keeps on smiling. Maybe that's why i have a special thing for the special. They are always happy even if they have defects. They can easily be entertained by just a clap or duling eyes.

i like watching special people. SOmetimes, i want to be with them mainly because i am a retard myself. Maybe i can ride with their way of thinking. And it's fun to be insane. atleast they're special.

Im excited to mingle with them soon. I ownder when. I want to imagine with them. play with them and be one of them for a while. It's fun to be in their world.

hello blog.

It's been a while. School started last monday and i don't feel good about it. Bah. It's boring. majors are boring.

a lot of things happened though.

my great grandma just passed away. Im wondering why im not that affected though. Maybe because i havent spent a lot of time with her because she's in China.

i also found out that it's not only me that has this doubt regarding ____. My friend1 also feels the same way and i was really surprised.

i was afraid for my friend2. Im glad friend2 is okay.

My sister kept on making me feel guilty abotu not joining JTA. Well yeah. i had unreasonable reasons.

She gave me the eye-opener and only reiterated my saying that i must really love what i hate if i want to make things happen.

for some reason, i am ironic.

i just believe that crying does not mean you are weak. You just show your emotions but it doesnt mean you give up. Yes you were sad but you dont pity on yourself. You just cry because that's how you felt. ANd it does not mean you will not do anything about it. actually i think crying means admitting that you were wrong. Well in my case, yes.

that's how my sister made me feel a while ago. and seriously, i never felt better. im glad.

You know what, it realy makes me happy when i feel pain. Kablam!!!

ive realized:
- this world will forever be unfair, even in the simplest things. the mere fact that you got the smaller part of the chicken. those things.
- people will always do things to their benefit. even lovers do. They love the person because the other makes him/her feel good.
- sometimes giving up is not bad. There are times when you just have to give up because you're just wasting time if you know that it will never work out. Hello? You can't force something you're not. It's just a fantasy.
- Weakness is strength. That's why i believe that tough guys do cry and weak guys don't.
- Strength is also a weakness. It is only when you're ready to show your flaws that you are strong.
- Sometimes you just have to swallow your pride whole. not in parts.
- Fears will waste your time. You just have to do the bahal na attitude and come what may. Just push yourself to something you hate and maybe it'll turn out fine. As my mom says, basta magugulat ka nalang.
- Money can not buy everything but it sure does make the world go round.
- Poverty will always be there. You can't do anything abou tit. You can't erase it but you can make a difference to a few. that's for sure.
- Perseverance sometimes does not guarantee anything. Sometimes, it's the gift. So don't push yourself on something you're just wishing for if you know that it is not for you. Besides, maybe it's not what you want after all, maybe that's what "you want because that's the one 'acceptable' for you" check on your ego, my friend. Find your own gift.
- Talents are not just limited on singing dacing and acting. It is as simple as being able to make me laugh. I don't laugh easily believe me. Im hard to be entertained by the usual comedy.
- I hate routine. even with people. I get tired with people and so i belive that in everything, ther must always be breaks in between.
- i am not an angel. i am not a devil either. I am a mixture and in some cases, i can be extremes but i still limit my actions.
- movies where one man saves the whole world is nothing. No person can ever do that. No matter how rich or influential you are. You can never please everyone.
- sometimes, you just have to give in to the world in order to survive. even if you hate it or it violates your rights. If that's waht they want, you give it to them. Besides, maybe giving in a little bit can even let you go to different places and there, do your masterplan.
- im not pessimistic. im not optimistic. im not realistic. Im nothing. what ive said are just my realizations in my opinion. I just want to note that, you can;t really dream high even if it's for free. Don't aim high all the time because it only makes you feel worse if you know you can never achieve it. The higher you get, the more impact on falling down.

well, for me, life is like this at the moment.

tambay sa bahay

ang saya kasi tumambay kahapon dito HS brkada ko. weeeeeeeee.. you know the feeling na kahit antagal nyong d nagkikita close pa rin? hahaha.. ang saya..

kahit babad lgn sa isang kwarto at puro kwentuhan lng, ang saya pa rin.

ang saya saya ang saya saya!

mga nagbago.

c cindy may bangs na haha bagay!!
c lea super straugth haba hair!
c kring new life haha
c don hayun puyat at pumayat
pero lahat kasing kwela at kasing lovable parin!

nung mga bandang 12 am na, andun pa rin c lea at kring, puro kababawan mga pinaguusapan nmn, kesyo paano niyo hinihiwa ang hotdog, kung tinutupi nyo pa iang tissue kung tatae kayo, kung paano kayo gumupit ng kuko-buo o bara2 lang.. hahah.,. andami namin natuklasan sa habits nmn.. pati pa nga nao ang inuuna. zipper o button?

alam mo buisit ka eh. wla aka ng inatupag kundi gumawa ng kung anu-anong assumptions dyan sa utak mo! akala mo baka kesyo ganito keasyo ganyan. eh anu mapapala mo dyan! puro ka nlng takot takot takot. nakakbuisit ka na eh! akala mo ba maganda yang gngwa mo? hindi! lalo ka lng natatakot kasi anu-anu iniicp mo.

nakakinis ka na eh! gusto na kitang patayin! titirisin ko mukha mo pag d ka tumigil eh. sawang sawa nako sa ugali mo eh! madedepress ka eh kasalanan mo naman! ano bang pakialam mo sa ibang tao ha! syado ka icp ng icp sa kanila eh. sasampalin na kita eh! d ka nmn nagtatanda! ulit ka nang ulit ng mali mo! sabi mo gusto mo maggrow. eh ikaw mismo ung sagabal sa growth mo. naiirita na tlga ako sau ha. PAPATYIN na ltga kita. kung pwd lang kia suntukin eh. BWISIT ka tlga sa buhay ko eh nh? kung 2 lng tlga tayo eh papatayin n tlga kita. humanda ka sakin. sa kakahiya hiya o takot mo niyan, ako ang papatay sa iyo. tumigil ka na nga. lagi nlng tayo nagtatalo. oo lagi nga d ka nmn nakikinig kahit ilang beses kita pagalitan o pagsabihan. anoba kasing ikinatatakot mo ha? ang iisipin ng iba? tangina mo nmn eh. tanga gago! isa kang malaking tanga! umayos ka nga. yan.. yan kasi.. sa mga insecurities mo. dyan ka napapahamak. dyan ka nadedepress. dyan ka mali at dyan ka babagsak kung d mo ayusin yan. Umayos ka ha. d nako nagbibiro. buisit ka tlga.

PS: *ignore, talking to myself*

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gabi

i rarely roll up our blinds at night.

pero gnwa ko ngayong gabi. at first d ko alam what to expect. it's either a horror view or a nice view. hindi mo alam nau pwd lumabas dyan. pero ganda pla.

wehn you see the buildings lit up at night. i can say a big wowwwwwwwwww.. :) ganda nh. d ko nga lam kung eastwood ata nakiktia ko eh. bsta there's one big UNIONBANK lit up haha. it's nice. i love the view. if only i can see more.

on my other windoe. i can see marikina ata or antipolo i dunno. bsta may mountains pero d sya ung nature'y mountains. pero oks lgn din. it's nice. BUT in the morning haha :) i wish i can stargaze kaso nga lng. nakaktkot sa amin pag gabi kasi kaya ayoko mag-isa dun at night sa open air.

teehee

im having a very BIG problem (well for me) hahaha

i know that i hate acting. but i know that i love to do what i hate. so how do i deal with the two opposing forces?

last night when i asked lippy to send me the script, I didn't know how to react. it's not that hard though except for the crying part which im not good at. though it's not serious, i kinda hate acting like im crying in the scene. i would rather act as the one who's angry. It's my best of most favorite role ever coz you don't have to act. for me it's easier to pretend you're angry than you're happy or crying. hahah. I LIKE WHINING TOO.

well in high school, i only had two memorable roles. one was im a ng angry mother playing a drama and MAMA RENE (Rene Salud) with Kris Aquino for Game K N B. I can tell that those were the times i really TRIED acting. other roles were just a person bombed, a tree moving, or a bloody ghost of a king.

i hate to do it but i really love to force myself to do what I don't want. Well, it's merely because i know it can help me grow too. shhessshh.. A while ago, while I was rehearsing all the lines (since i don't know which role I'll get), I first read the line "HANUBAYAN!"

EEP! my mother heard me and opened the door to my room and asked, "Sinong kausap mo?"

Well, the usual embarassed me just lied, "Wala. Kausap ko lang sarili ko."

Grr. even my dad caught me one time. I was pretending in my room to be a stwardess saying "Coffee or tea?" and one time, pretending to be my orthodontist. :P nakakahiyaaa.. hahaha

but i have a calling to say Noooo---errr--yesss?? let's see. I don't know. Im also having trouble with the costume part. I hate dressing up like a kid coz you have to wear shorts. ANTI-SHORTS.

uy

im currently loving:

• GARY VALENCIANOOOOOOOOO
• TONI GONZAGAAAAAAAAAAA
• BIANCA GONZALESSSSSS

weeeeeeeee.. hahah

• at mga payongggggggg!!!!!! hindi ung floral payong. kundi ung malalaking payong na sturdy. ang ganda tingnan. modern na modern ahah. tibay pa! :)

nanood kasi ako ng big reunion kahapon, ang galing ni gary v magdeliver ng song nya. lagi galing sa puso haha.. *iyak* hahaha .. :)