gutm ako ngaun

i wonder what makes the brain temporarily unconscious. naisip ko lang. masyado ba talaga akong makaklimutin na kahit hawak ko na ang hinahanap ko ay naghahanap pa rin ako? :o hindi ko kasi mahanap suklay ko eh. yun pala nasa pocket ko lang grr.. random thoughts: diba ang galing ng temperature? kahit hindi masarap kunwari ang inumin pero malamig ang sarap kasi nakakatanggal ng uhaw! pero pag gutom ka naman at gusto mo kumain. sympre maghahanap ka ng mainit. kahit mejo pangit o di ganon kasarap ang fud, msarpa na rin bsta nakakapaso at mainit!! lalo na pag maanghang . puro anghang na lang malalasahan mo! galing ako sa ateneo grade school nung saturday. grabe. ang ganda!!! parang dream school ko if bata ako.. andami ng ouno. ang linis pa at sympre may playground yeheyy.. ang ganda ng classrooms. well mas ok ung grade school campus nila compared to xavier haha grade school. i can say mas marumi sa xs :P as i can remember from my summer classes way back in time. natutuwa din ako tingnan yung mga pusa. nung sunday kasi kumain kami ng breakfast sa labas ng pamilya ko. aga namin gumising!!!!! mga 630 nasa manila na kami kumakain hahah.. ang saya wala lang. natuwa pako dun sa pusa sa ilalim ng sasakyan tuwang tuwa.. nakikishade sa kotse :P himbing pa matulog. cute cute cute weee

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update. request ni stan hahahha.. eto may runny nose ako. aching nang aching. alam mo bakit? kasi puro balahibo na nasa ilogn ko. dami ko nasinghot na balahibo ng mga aso. heeh pero msya!! kasi knina nagcartimar kami. ayoko bumili ng aso kasi tkot ako saka dami gastos. hanggang wondow shopping nlng :P peor ahyun sa sobrang tuwa ko pati balahibo nila sarp singhutin. kaya nagkallergy ako. :) at eto isa pa. super akkahiya. wla nako mukha ihaharap knina sa icebergs.. kasi nmn eto nangyari. may ipis dun sa may mga models stand sa labas.. hndi kami mapakali ni shobe kasi ipis un eh. ayaw namin sa ipis. takot at galit din ako sa ipis!!! tick tock tick tock. ok andyan pa nmn ung ipis ndi nmn kami inaano kasi nasa labas sya.. tas bgla whoaaaa..nwala!! *panic**panic**panic**panic**panic**panic* pumasok na ung ipis sa loob!! dinapuan ang waiter, habang ako lumipat ng upuan at ang shobe ko ay tumayo na sa chiar ahha.. tas ung ipis dumapo sa isang magshota. kawawang lalaki. kelangan ipakita na macho sya kaya kunwaring wlang tajkot. shoo away lng pero halatang tkot.. punas ng punas sa noo sa pawis sa takot. si babae nmn halatang tinatago na nttwa sa kadate. ang nakakahiya ay sa sobrang twang-twa ko.. hayun pag labas ko ng icebergs pinagattawanan ko pa ung buong thing. hahaha "ung lalaki halatang bla bla bla.. " "kasi nmn nakaktkot tlga ung ipis" HAHAHAHHA.. tas nasa likod pla nmn ung dalwa. *pahiya*

awwww

lam mo share ko lang. ang saya kasi nung binabrowse ko ung notebook ng kapatd ko na gr 6, may essay writing sya sa eng nun tas napatingin ako. sabi dun. who is the one who helps you in your problems? sabi nya.. My dichie helps me a lot. even though she has many things to do and even though we always fight, she still tries her best to help and comfort me. awwwwwww... :) ang saya.. never thought she thought of me that way. :P

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sabi ni rustom kay roxy o roxie ba? paraphrased. d ko lam anu ung exact words hindi palagi na ikaw ang bunso.. mahirap akuin ang responsibilidad lalo na pag ikaw na ang pinakamatanda. ikaw na ang pinakamay responsibilidad sa bahay. hindi lahat ng gusto mo ay pwdeng mangyari.. natamaan ako dun. i never grow up but kanina nakapagmuni muni ako compared nung high school, ive developed a lot int erms of how i think. i guess kahit papaano lumaki dn ako.. iv grown a little and that makes me happy dati i can still remember being childish when it comes to hasty decisions.. im just glad of what i am today. nakausap ko nga c chari kagabi sa car, sabi nya na pag nakikita nyako, lagi nyanaiicp na bata ako. well nasanay nga ako na binebaby ako sa kaingin lalo na nung 1st yr ko.. haha c nanay chari :P ngunit wla akong tatay sa kaingin hahah.. tas sinabi ko s knya parang tumatanda lang ako physically.. pero i guess isip bata pa rin ako compared to others but i know and belive na luamki na rin ako. hindi ko inaasam to be an adult adult, pero im just happy na kahit papaano, i am experiencing growth. well college taught me many things. :) but still lumaki man ako.. cguro not baby to lady agad... cguro baby to bonjing NYAHAHH.. :D joke

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inaantok nako.. zzzzzzzzzzzz.. naicp ko lang dirediretso late tulog ko ah.. hahaha ang tahimik na ng ateneo. wla na ung mga sigang seniors hahaha joke!! inaapi ako dati nung freshie ako hahah tulog na tlga ako. gudnyt!

tribute to BUB

hayy so sad..

bka it may sound corny to you dear reader pero tlgang nalulungkot ako sa pagkawala ni BUB. well if you dont know who BUB is, sya ung carebear na si bedtime b ear na kulay BUbblegum kaya BUB ang nickname nya..

well bakit nga ba siya nawawala?

pinamigay ng kapatid ko :(

you know what.. never pa kasi ako nawalan ng minamahal kaya siguro ito ung una.. kahit stuff toy siya.. kasi naman noh.. marami na kaming bonding moments.. hehehe.. minsan kung alam kong super ndi ako magets o maunderstand ng mga tao, nilalaro ko nalang sila.. o kinakausap.. mukang tanga noh? pero minsan surprisingly, sila nakakpagpasaya sakin . kasi lagi lang sila nakatawa.. kaya mahal na mahal ko un. kaso bgla na lang nwala??

ndi man lang sinabi..

ndi man lang nagpaalam..

nagulat na lamang ako na kahapon ndi ko na sya mahanp..

diba?? icpn mo kung tao un, bgla nlng nwala sayo na hndi nagpaalam. parang kay BUB din, ndi man lang ako sinabhan ng kptd ko na kukunin nya.. at never na ibabalik..

buti sana kung hiram lng.. pero ndi eh.. forever gone na.. favorite ko pa namn un.. at bgay pa un ni trish.. :(

tas kaabi . iniicp ko nalang lahat ng happy memories namin.. ganun pla feeling mwalana ng espesyal sa yo noh? panu pa kaya pag tao un.. mas maskit..

pero stuff toy lang ito eh.. pero mahal ko si Bub.. ndi man lang ako nakapagbye bye :( namimiss ko everytym pinapawiggle ko ung feet nya sa lap ko.. kapag tinitwist ko ung blue hair nya.. wehh pati ung heart nya sa pwet.. pati na rin ung tail nya na maliit.. :( bye BUB.. huhuhuhuhuu.. kasama ko pa namn pagtulg. actually tatlo silang katabi ko.. sa Bub, si khutulun (ung dog na stuff toy), at si rosemarie (ung bear na bngay ni fren) hayy..

my plenary paper. sumthgn to think about

When Fr Dan first showed us the time travel video during the plenary, I was sort of hypnotized. I don’t know if hypnotized is the right word but I felt like I was so disillusioned about the world I’m living in right now. I can just say “whoaaaa… I never imagined that there was something that great OUT there!!!” Seriously, it shocks me.

Actually, I don’t know how to react. I just felt lost and empty at the moment. Plenaries have a tendency to make me feel depressed because it shows me how bad or disorganized the world is. I feel alone in this vast world, not even knowing how I came to be me. I am so sad to see how this world slowly crumbles. I love this world that sheltered me my whole life. When I see the other galaxies moving away from our world, although it is just an illusion that makes us look like in the center, I feel like, the world is such a lonely place if you place it among the other galaxies. I feel so small. It depresses me. I may be here living comfortably in front of my computer but in truth, there is still a vast space out there, not knowing what may happen in the long run. Galaxies are separating and other stars are exploding. Others are even being extinguished and all I can imagine is a total destruction of the whole universe.

I may just be pessimistic but I’m really sad that what if that may happen? I don’t want to experience it. It’s not just about the fear of death too. It’s about my care for this universe. I don’t want something to be ruined especially the ones that are close to my heart. Yes, this universe is close to my heart. I love this universe because all throughout my life, it has sustained me. And all I can do is thank God for all of this. Just imagine all the wonders out there. I can never stop praising God for His creation. It’s just too wonderful that it makes me cry out of joy. Seriously.

Why do we keep on searching for what happened before? Well, my guess is that so that we can sort of predict the future. Unless we know where we are heading to, we will always be restless, feeling anxious all the time. It is because when we know how everything began, we can pattern it with something and therefore, understand better the universe and all its laws. We can better prepare our future too. Personally, I just want to know because I’m scared of what might happen. When we are not exposed to the truth, we will all be restless.

But actually, although fear dominates me, I believe that we can never understand everything for the human brain also has its limits. Maybe the answer is beyond our comprehension and all that we can do is trust in God. At this point, I just want to cherish everything and make this world a better place. I know it sounds cliché but that’s my philosophy in life. You’ll never know what may come your way. I just want to make the most out of this lifetime. Whatever happened before, I just want to let it be lest I miss out the good things in life. But for whatever reason why all of these came about, I’ll forever be grateful that because of them, I have come to this world. And this world I’m experiencing right now? It’s just wonderful. Super. :D


Our hearts will forever be restless unless we rest in Thee.

reflections

QQ visited Jules a while ago in Cardinal. Nakaktawa kasi nugn nakita namin si Jules sa hospital, super kamukha nya dad nya.. ahha parang cartoon.. ang hrap magkasakit grabe.. fever palang nananamlay nako. dengue pa kaya.. ilang bese kinukunan ng blood tests.. hay hope he gets well soon.. nakaktuwa nga eh kasi jules na jules pa rin siya nung binisita namin haha.. though mejo mukhang nahihirapan, jules is jules. nakaktuwa pa rin at sympre maputi pa rin :D nga pla, nag-intact faci ako for next yr.. si wilson kasi pinilit ako eh hehe joke. ndi nmn. actually, gusto ko tlga. natatakot lng ako bka mabore ko ung freshmen or bka ndi ko makaya ung workload.. pero sympre paninidigan ko ito.. pero sa totoo lang, parang ang exciting.. gagwn ko ult mga gnwa samin nina JR at peter noon. ung mga mini-GD, mga intact days,.. hay. may sweldo pa kami yey.. mga 80 nga lang ata.. pero what the heck.. pera pa rin un haha! i just hope na magawa ko ito nang maayos. problem is .. since nasanay ako sa kaingin na magturo ng small kids. baka un ung magamit kong approach sa mga freshmen. oh well, exciting pa rin for me.. :) niyaya rin nga ako ni fren magtours sa orsem.. hmm sali kaya ako? parang okay dn hah .. wag lang tnt sympre.. alam nyo nmn ako,. tahimik hahaha.. haynako.. ang wild kasi ng trabaho nila.. tours pwd ndi umimik haha.. tagabantay lng.. sayang lng kasi bwal daw ako magbantay sa kaingin spot sa orgtours.. darnn.. but i want to peep! :P iniicp ko lang na next yr.. what will change? marami. marami tlaga.. ill surely miss being part of the core group of kaingin.. the weekly meetings kahit may long test next day.. those little planning sessions.. mga lakad all around the campus para magpasign ng mga letters or proposals.. lahat un kahit nakakapgod.. mamimiss ko and im sure mababgo buhay ko next yr coz it wont be the same life i used to have ds yr.. *sniff* but no matter how i want to go back, i just cant. why? maraming rason. salamt na lamang sa core na mahal ko. salamat sa laht ng mga pinagdaanan natin. salamat.. basta salamt.. hindi niyo alam panu kayo naging bahagi ng buhay ko.. saludo ako sa inyo.. salamat.. *sniff*

last day

Last area today..... thot it wud be very awwwww.. pero nooo... gulo ng mga bata.. nastress ako hahaha! pero cge na nga.. awwwwwww pa dn.. wooohooooo!! last beaf knina!!! yeaaaaaaaa!!! my term is OFFICIALLY OVER! woohoo woohoo woohoo!! naubos dn ung stack ko of beafs hahahah!! yes! alam niyo, pag nagsusulat ako sa blog, minsan tinatamad ako sa sobrang dami kong iniicp.. hayy.. wla lang.. ohwell... bbgyan ko nlng kayo ng pabaon na question.. have you seen your friends serious? (weird q ba? just a thot. kasi usually i think na i dont know my friends very much..minsan lng ako sineseryoso ng mga tao. people always confront me about light stuff, but the deep serious stuff, wla pa ako masyado napapakinggan. am i that comical? do i look "unserious"? but in fact, i am serious hahah.. totoo.. well im just curious about everyone's serious side.)