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oh my goshhhh i cant believe nahanap ko na ang pinakainaasam asam ko!! well mababaw pero ang hinahanp ko pala ay nasa bahay lang pla! anu b un? well simplicity of life nang malaman ko kasi na walang pasok at parang i found time to stop from all these tuloy2 na stress, i immediately said thank u Lord!!! kahit sabhn nating magulo ang panahon, good timing ka dahil masama rn pakiramdam ko.. thank you for being wioth me all these times..and ang saya pa kasi kahapon before acctng exam, andami kong nakita na kaingeros! ang saya lng kasi unlgn pla ung kelangan ko.. a break. nariringi ko pa ung radio, ung hangin lakas2.. hayy tas sabi pa ni trian kagabi mag-ingat daw kasi bka may mangyari.. napaicp tulyo ako kelan kaya ako masasaksak.. ganun ako kapessimist.. well ito mga nakita ko khpon na kaingin una si wilson sa may schmitt then si lippy sa may road nung nsa car ako then c imman then c mon sa escaler sympre ksma ko cna carissa at fren sa volley nakita ko rn c arnie sa acctng nakita ko rn c mara sa may daan away from lib nakita ko rn ung picnic ng musmos at kaingin from afar habvang nagmamadali ako pumuntang mcdo to have dinner hahaha.. sarado kasi lib. cant solve acctng probs on an empty stomach! owell babye!

rest

ang busy ng life ko ngaun. tests here adn there pero msya ako kasi im busy. labo ba? haha siguro alam nyo rn ung feeling na busy pero smya.. kasi alam mong may kwenta ang mga gngwa mo.. ur doing something productive.. per bkt ba ko nagbblgo pa rn? wla lng.. haha

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random thoughts i want to share:

1st, i can feel the oil in myu body. cholesterol is eating me up now., dahil sa sissig na kinain namin kanina sa grilla. im balancing it with either oatmeal or fruits.. pero kahti na wah.. i gave in to temptation hahah.. next time i will have my blood test again, hopefully ndi na sya mataas or else il get atherosclerosis

2nd, bakit ba ang kulit ng mga tao? sinabi na ngang bwal magsmoke sa loob ng establishment. ambaho baho. nangamoy usok buong ktwan ko knina sa grilla. bahh.. kaya ng amay open area eh. dont invade in my breathing space. plus, may mga bata kang katabi hello? papatyin mo sila sa emphysema

3rd, wahh wla pako naaaral for SA grrr.. why? saturday, kaingin area, then read noli and fili for sharing of notes wd fren grp and company then bday ng lolo ko so ubos buong sunday ko. and tom is my test. mag-aaral pa ba ako gayung alam ko nmn na ahndi na rn ako aabot sa oras? argg but i must i must.

4th, ambilis ko maantok. i odnt know if it's the season or the ambiance or is it just me. kahit maaga ako gumcng to study nakaktulog pa rn ako in between.

5th, leyte tragedy was a big disaster. biruin mo. parang buong mountain ung nahulog sa kanila.. if there were only trees to suck the water and hold the soil better. so let us recycle reuse reduce and redesign! (sci10 lecture haha) pero totoo, a paper reylced helps a lot. baka nasave mo pa ung isang batang napipi sa lupa at nalibing nang buhay.

6th, ive evaluated myself and i have come to a conclusion, i am weird. not funny weird. but scary weird. im scared of myself too. i odnt k now why im imagining things or even creating thing sin my mind. I am paranoid too. SOmetimes i just hear voices in my head and i fel i have a split personality. Maybe im schizophrenic. Darn. now who is the real ja talking ryt now? i dunno too.

7th, im either too hardowrking or too lazy. ryt now im too lazy to even study or open the book and start. Kasi nmn baka ndi ko rn matapos. prang ayaw ko nlng umpisahan. no closure kasi eh. bka maginfo overload lng.

8th, i must study na cge na ngaa.. ok bye bye! i am weird. i dont anyone can ever relate to my mindset. Usually, when i share stuff about these, they would always tell me the same things. or just give me a raised eyebrow. No one can understand. Am i human?

dear ja

dear janelle,

hello! how are you! you look stressed. what's up what's up?

hmm why are you not replying? are you so tired to even talk? ok i guess i know the answer. i know what's on ur mind. duh. you're either too lazy or too hardworking. You are never moderate. That's the problem. but is it just stress that's eatign you up? Nah. i dont think so. Come on. tell me. i know you are craving for a friend right now. I know you're having regrets right now but it's part of growing up! You cant just say yes to everything you want. Sometimes, you just have to say no because you cant handle it anymore. It's the letting go that's hard right? Yeah. i agree. but you have to admit it. Times change and you have to adpat. The world will not adjust to you. Adpating is a skill. Just like every year, people come and go, and u have to accept it. Now why am i tellign you this? because i care for you. You're tired. I can see it in ur eyes. You dotn even have time to quiet down and stop for a while.

I know that you are confused but you've already decided ya know. You may take it back but you know that you cant just do it because it's not that simple. All you have to do is to cherish the remaining time left for you. Got it? helo? are you still there? DOnt worry about academics too much. Im sure you can do it.

Love, self

feels great

the end is getting closer. yet im not sad because why o why will i be happy if i prolong the hell month?! im too tired but yes.. it will be over soon. i just want to watch a movie and enjoy my plain popcorn. matagal tagal na rin hindi ako nakapanuod ng sine. gusto ko rin huminto sandali at magbuffet during breaks. yan nag nalearn ko from chari nung nagsaisaki sila ni JR nung break nila. saya db? ako caf lang tas pwd nmn pla tayo magbarrio fiesta during our breaks hahaha!! :) gusto ko rn mamahinga.. magluto.. at pulutin ang mga bulati sa garden ko at ipakain sa mga isda. gusto ko rin galawin ung mga ugat ng orchids at alalayan kung san sila dapat kumabit. gusto ko rn lumabas lng ng bahay at makita kong magrise ang araw. gusto ko rn muling gumising nang maaga, hidni para pumasok kundi para batiin lang si God at si mother nature haabng nagpapabilad ako to get my dose of Vit D. ahha.. gusto ko rn kunin lahat ng banaan peel na kaakin ko at ibigay sa rabbit ko instead of itapon. tama na kasi ako ibigay sa knya lately kaya end up nasa basura lng yung banan peel instead of food ni rabbit. gusto ko rn maibaon nag mga ibang balat sa lupa at makita kung paano ito kunin at kainin ng mag bulati. hay.. i miss the days when im still free just this college. ngayon, im so stressd pero nasasabik nako. finally, this will come to an end. yet i know, the cycle will continue.

In love ka ba? May mga problema ka ba sa pag-ibig? Ikaw ba ay si Mr Torpe? Ikaw ba'y si Mabilis? Ikaw ba'y maraming katanungan tungkol sa pakikipagrelasyon? Pwes, mayroon handog ang Kaingin para sa iyo! Bukas ito para sa lahat!